Bathing

This started out as a little pen drawing so I could get an idea of what Rue's back might look like. Originally I was going to have it a lot more scarred, but then I remembered that I might want to draw Rue from behind again someday, and a million scars might be difficult to place appropriately.

This is also incredibly cliché.

Please excuse my complete lack of being able to draw a person from behind, especially a well muscled person. Would one of you guys like to draw him and I can have some loverly arts to brighten my spirits?

It's been a hard last little while for me. I'm still battling feelings of complete lonliness, and a resurgence of feelings regarding my past abuse.

Every time I think I've dealt with it, something comes up and reminds me that I haven't. Every time I think I've completely forgiven both of them for what they have done, I am reminded brutally what I've lost because of them.

I was expressing my feelings of anxiety to my priest about my upcoming wedding- more specifically, I know that a person with my background has a few strikes against them before the vows are even exchanged. My abuse, being surrounded by unhealthy marital relationships, and so on.

He said it was good that I was concerned, because it meant that I knew it could be a problem, and could look out for it.

He also confirmed a fear: It was a strike against me, as far as a successful marriage goes. The most successful ones, he said, were when two Christians married each other and were virgins when they did so.

It makes my heart ache. I'm still suffering the consequences of something that happening to me when I was three. For the first time in a long time, I felt anger towards the man who had taken that from me. It's... I mean, I hate to say it, but it just feels so completely unfair. I didn't choose, at the age of three, to no longer be a virgin.

It's crazy to think that when I was three, my chances at a successful marriage immediately fell by something like over 50%.

I keep praying that God will take this bitterness, anger, and pain away. I truly want to forgive both of them, and become a new creation. In time.

For the time being, enjoy Rue, who feels to me like a kindred soul.

I finally decided on Lieza's outfit and her colours. In winter, her sleeves are longer, she has a cloak, and she also wears pants under her dress. In summer, everything here stays the same, except her leather boots are either booties or she's barefoot. (Depending on her mood)

The Bacculi women wear wraps around their waists in case of an emergency. Just like in the days of the first neckties, the Bacculi wear them in case of a serious cut, broken bone, or in the chance of a sudden birth. As an apprentice Healer, it's extra important that Lieza is prepared for such an occasion.

Please enjoy.

An Update

Lieza practice. I was down at the Harvest Jazz and Blues Festival, and I sketched what people were doing. I changed them slightly so they would be crying. (I've been thinking about how Lieza would feel right after the events of the next chapter)
Rue hanging out with Sonya's original character. I don't believe he has a name... Maybe they're travelling together? Getting ready for rest and that guy counting their money. Sonya's cat guy belongs to her, and her blog is there on the right.

Please enjoy.

Tobias Doodle

I was going through my old sketchbooks and memorabilia the other night, and found this drawing. It's about four years old, but I thought it was pretty cute, so I put it into photoshop, and... well, here you are. I wanted to try the coloured line thing I've seen, like in Disney movies, but I honestly think that Tobias is too bright to warrant this sort of thing. I was squinting nearly the entire time I was drawing this.

I spent way too much time on this, because I had already finished the line work when I thought, "Hey, maybe the lines should be colour". I think Tobias'd make a really cute plushie. Anyway, please enjoy.

Birthday, Pt2

Rue in his true glory. Please enjoy.

Running

The hair I finally decided on for Lieza. She's running from some bad people... It was suggested to me to lighten her skin, but I couldn't bear to part from such a lovely colour...

Chillaxin'

A cute, overly- feminine Tobias with an odd face and poor background. PS, I found the problem- I downloaded Google Chrome and suddenly Blogger is working for me! Kudos to my mother, who suggested Chrome as I dislike Firefox.

Princess Rhiannon

Naked cat princess thing, sitting.

more updates of love

These images are a little older, but I'm still pretty proud of them, and I've never shared them with you before.